Been feeling alot like this   lately. it feels like nothing i do is ever right. one of the worse feelings in the world is knowing that you disappointed someone (or worse..yourself), or you cant live up to someone's expectations. there are alot of things i wish i could change..but with some things theres just no hope. hoping things will get better after the semester is over. 2 1/2 weeks till graduation 
now let me introduce you to my new baby.... 
tigger
One day..as tigger was sleeping soundly in his bed..
tigger: *yawn* arghh...what's going on? why u waking me up??
tigger: hmm ok back to sleep
pooka: ahhh what a nice soft bed tigger: huh?? why are you on my bed??!
tigger: hellooo get off MY bed u fatty. this bed aint big enough for the both of us.
tigger: *pushing* erff ooomph..cmon...get off!! pooka: heeyyy stop..im falling off the bed
pooka: much better. theres more room on this side.
tigger: fine..that's it!! you dont want to listen to me and get off my bed....then....
...im just going to JUMP on you till u get off !!
tigger: grrrrrr pooka: ho hum ho hum..la dee da..i dont feel a thing u puny lil puff ball
pooka: errr ok fine...i guess ill sleep on the floor
tigger: ahhh finally. got the bed ALL to MYSELF!!! *night night*
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and if u dont go then 
grr. u suck..and be prepared for a beatdown..you'll be lucky if im too drunk to even notice. 